5 December.

Assalamualaikum WBT.

Penat sungguh harini. Struggle dengan ramai orang dekat efbee. Lepas satu, satu masalah. Now, aiyaiyai T^T Seems like everybody really really wants me to make my bad habit again. And tiba-2 aku rindu nak buat bad habit tu. Dulu, my fellow dormmate yg selalu nasihatkan aku. Yes, that one is Syakirah.

"Eryn, takpenat ke tiap2 hari menangis?"
"Tak. Crying is my hobby"

Seriously do. I'm so sick of pretending that I'm OK in front of you. I feel like every part of me slowly dying inside. We're slowly very very apart than before. Don't you realise it? Seriously. Aku rasa down gila bila kita gaduh. Aku tak tipu. Kau boleh tanya dormmate aku. And aku taktahu laah. Lately ni aku rasa different gila. Macam kena sampuk pun ada kot. And aku rasa janggal gila nak nangis depan kau. Aku tahu kau terasa gila sebab aku close sikit dengan Raby kaan? Aku tahu semua itu. Tapi kau tolong ah faham wey. Next year kita satu class and maybe duduk sebelah-2 pulak kaan? Please lah pity me. Next year, Raby dah tak satu kelas dengan aku. It's not my mean to make your day down. Aku tahu, status dekat efbee tu untuk aku and sebab friendship kita start to ruin kan? Dengar okay..! I will never make our friendship turns to Shit.

*Bye. Moody sikit.

Lots Of Love, Eryn ♥

A life I live.

Assalamualaikum WBT.

My life Alhamdulilah everything's gonna be fine and Okay :) 

"behind my smile is a hurting heart. behind my laugh i'm falling apart. look closely at me and you'll see.
   the girl i am isn't me"

Wey aku tahu kau selalu baca blog aku kan? Aku tahu ituuu..... You says that i am complicated -_-
And yes I know it. How did we go from friends to strangers in a matter of days? Err, I know it's all my problems. I'm just missing the old you. Aku rasa mcm aku "kacang lupakan kulit" Huahuaa :P Yelah, aku taklayan kau semua. Even aku takcerita pun dekat kau pasal the latest stories. ERR, aku memang dah melampau kan kan?

I'm sorry I'm not what you wanted.

*Sorry post a lil bit Emo.

Lots Of Love, Eryn ♥

December :)

Assalamualaikum WBT.

Haiyaaaaaaaaa, cepat je masa berlalu. Lepaas December, then January 2012 -,- Awwhman, time tu dah start newyear and masuk sekolah and belajar and homework and ............?? Macam-2 lagi laaah tak boleh nak describe sebab dah terlampau excited ni huahuahua c:  

Eh ada perubahan kan my blog? Sikit jelaaaaaaaaaaaaah, sebab too Malas much much nak edit semuaa. Aku bukan cukup masa pun haha *nampak sangat tipu T.T Okay nak cerita ni, actually aku dekat Bandar Sri Putra, Bangi. My second house besides Tapah -,- Then, aku teramat laaaah bosan disini. Ape yang aku buat? Online makan tido tu jeelaah. ISH =,=

Sekarang 1December kaan, countdown for 17 days more! Huahua, my birthday ;) Huh? Baru nak masuk 13? Kesian hahaha. Biasalah, lahir lambat. Apodaaaaaaaaaaaa. Nak buat I/C pun last year lambat gila dapat. Haha, nanti nak ambil license kereta mesti lambat jugaaaaaaak. Okay, aku dah berangan besar dah ni xD

So my birthday aku harap sangat all my dreams come true. Aku haraap sangat-2 niiii. And next year dah Form 2 :'( Dah ada Junior lalalala aku tak suke -,- Entahlah, aku kadang2 suke, kadang2 tak suke. Tengok jelah macamana tahun depaaaan o.O 

Ape perasaan korang bila kawan yg takrapat sgt tiba-2 minta Couple? Urggh! Boleh jalan lah wey -,-

Lots Of Love, Eryn ♥

Lagi dan Lagi -_-

Assalamualaikum WBT.

ERR, aku sakit pinggang -,- Banyak sungguh dugaan aku harini.. Ceh *_* Dahlah dekat rumah sorangII, lepastu diarahkan untuk mengemas rumah. Duuh, gaya macam Bibik kan? Err, Bibik tanpa upah pulak tu. Dahlah tanpa Upah, then kena Ugut -,- Haish, sabar jelaaaah banyak-2 :'(

Conversation aku dengan my mom ------->

Bunda : Eyin dah kemas bilik abg?
Me : Belum, petang satgi laah - nada malas -

Bunda : Ape ni? Nasib baik mak balik lambat. Eh lagi 1, mop lantai sekali tau, dah melekit blablablabla

Me : Alaaaaaaaaaa, susahlaah malaas.

Bunda : Mak balik kalau melekit tak payah bawak pergi jalan. Duduk rumah je.

Me : Yelahhh -,- InsyaAllah kalau ingat.

Kesian kan aku? Kena ugut pulak tu, huahua :'> *Sambil buat muka terpaksa

Lots Of Love, Eryn ♥

Something ♥

Assalamualaikum WBT.

P/S ; I AM REALLY IN ♥ WITH YOU,

MR. HANDSOME ^^

Lots Of Love, Eryn ♥

Homeworks, my Love :)

Assalamualaikum WBT.

Alhamdulillah, my life is getting better. Yeah, Thanks a lot to my Besties for being my Supporter. Sayang korang sangat-2 #Rabiatul #Haziyah :0 Now I am having a good life, for sure! Just, I'm being so confused. Is He the right one for me? Oh lupakan jelaah, baru kawan je pun. But it's Okay! I'm very scrumptious appreciate it ;)

Dah tukar topic laah -,-

Err, aku ingat Homeworks setakat tu je. Then tadi aku bukak blog Sesta, saje je nak usha. Betapa terkejut beruk nye bila ada homeworks lagi. Fasa 2 pulakkk? Takpayah nak ber'Fasa-2' Lah Cikguu! Aduuh, menyusahkaaann laah. Kenapa huh? Asal Holidays je, mesti Homeworks ada. Perlu sangat ke? Aku ingat lagi, time English Subject dalam kelas 1 Helianthus, Teacher Huda yang the Cutest ajar. Dia kata : "Who Thinks Homeworks is your Boyfriends/Girlfriends?" Err, aku usha sekeliling duluu. Ramai yg angkat then aku angkat laah tangan ^^ HAHA lawak pun ada do ;P

*Dengar lah, best tau*

*Saya ingat awak kalau saya dengar lagu ni*

*Auch, gedik ;p*

Lots Of Love, Eryn ♥

Kill

Assalamualaikum WBT.

Terima kasih banyak-2 kerana engkau telah membuatkan aku gembira pada mulanya.
Terima kasihhhhhhhh

You're such a good friend of mine.

Raby, kau salah.
Malah, lebih teruk. 

Aku dipermainkan

I'd been fooled with You.

Aku tak sangka.
Kau sanggup buat aku macamni.
My heart hurt.  So hurt.

You are kiling me smoothly.

I love you.

Take this knife and stab me in my back.

Dah, takpayah nak pujuk aku. Takperlu nak like semua status aku. Kau dah malukan aku.  And last thing, takpayah nak hantar chat lagi.

Kau ego, go back to your life!!!!!

@$%^@*&#&^#%#(

Perasaan aku berkecamuk.

He says: Aku belum menang lagiiii ..............

Aku sayang kau. Kau telah buat aku sedaaar.

Kenapa aku masih tak pernah merasa erti kebahagiaan?

Setiap yang berlaku ada hikmahNya.

Lots Of Love, Eryn ♥

Terlanjur kata

Assalamualaikum.

OMJJJ! Macam mana aku boleh terlepas cakap ni?
Kenapa aku rasa macam kau dah tau? Matiiilaaaaaaah.
Hancurlah misi visi aku kali ni alololo

Alaaaaaaaaa, aku taknak kau tahu yg aku ________ kau

Sh*t lah, habislah aku

Bye

I'm gonna die___________________.

Lots Of Love, Eryn ♥

Untitled.

Assalamualaikum WBT.

Love is Hurt. 

Too Hurt for Me.

I'm trying to forget you because I know it's the best for me. You have your World, and I have mine too. I'm just scared that I can't control my feelings in front of you. Sorry, so sorry.

Aku teringin if one day aku buka message and tiba-2 you say that is you. I am too happy for sure. Aku pernah terkena dengan my BFF sebenarnya, her name is Ain and today is her birthday :'> Dia kata, dia adalah ________ and tiba-2 "Aku Ain lah" Ish, geraaam gila. Dahlah aku excited gila-2 at first. Entahlaah, kalau ada, adalah. Takde, takdelaah.

"Haha. Muka ego, nak setia. Eryn, trust me, semua benda boleh jadi."
AND
"Haha. Jadi goodlistener pun okay jugak. Kau dengar je masalah dia, jadi counselor. One day, boleh jadi juga dia suka kau sebab kau selalu nasihatkan dia xP"
-From Raby [text in phone]

Lots Of Love, Eryn ♥

Happy enough.

Assalamualaikum WBT.

Comel gila budak niii (: Aloooloo, geramm wey. Oh okay stop it :P 

Bytheway, happy holiday. Masih tak terlambat kan nak wish? Haha, hope korang punya hols tak seboring my holiday -,- Seriously bosan gila gila kot. Homeworks? Confirm lah pasti ada. And korang fikir aku rajin sangat ke nak buat? Aku rasa tarikh akhir hantar baru aku tergesa-gesa buat kot ;P

Cukuplah aku berbasa-basi di pagi hari ni :3

Now im realize that i'm not good enough to be with you. But, I can't get you out of my mind. What crap I'm talking about? Huhh -_- Azreen, he loves someone else lahh. That's the reality. Okay i know it :'> Apa pun, terima kasih lah banyak-2. Cukup, aku dapat chat dgn kau pun jadilah. Aku cukup gembira. Look, title pun "happy enough". So I really mean it :D

First-2, my heart says that :

When I see you're online, I wanted to start a conversation. But then, I felt guilty and not brave 

enough to start it.

But aku taktahu hantu mana yg rasuk tadii -,- Dah malas cerita panjang-2, yeay! ^_^

Lots Of Love, Eryn ♥

Trying.

Assalamualaikum.

Sorry guys. I still can't forget him do. I'm trying over and over but i can't. I'm sorry. I'm just confused. I hope you guys understand my feeling. I'm tired to cry again :'(

October 1st, 0158 hrs.

Lots Of Love, Eryn ♥

October.

Assalamualaikum.

Yeah, aku harap October will be the awesome-est month ever. Like #Raby said last night. " You will meet the rainbow after you see the heavy rain " InsyaAllah, Allah dah tetapkan segalanya utk aku. Segala yg terjadi, ada hikmahnya. At least, bersyukurlah. Ramai lagi yang tersiksa di luar sana :)

ps: Thanks Syakirah and Ain for giving me the spiritual card. Hekhek, thanks gila do. Korang bukan saje bagi card, korang jugaklah terpaksa mendengar rintihan aku ptg tu c:

Thanks much to #Haziyah, #Rabiatul, #Ewana too :)

I hope there's no fake smile again on my face. Btw, i still can't smile like always :|

Lots Of Love, Eryn ♥